"That's a damn fine cup of coffee."

at 13, twin peaks blew my mind. and i am certain it made me who i am without a doubt. this article from the guardian about the show's 20th anniversary shares the thoughts of 6 veterans of the show and points out that, really, this show broke the mold. http://www.guardian.co.uk/tv-and-radio/2010/mar/21/twin-peaks-twenty-years-on

this show set in stone the kind of weird freak i was soon to become. my love for film -- strange, confusing, arresting, beautiful films -- came directly from my obsession with Twin Peaks (and, to be fair, my obsession with 'Rear Window' which definitely predates Twin Peaks for me. I first saw it at age 8, i think...). I can remember being on the phone with my best friend, Cotter, at a commercial break and having to cut that conversation off so I could go back to Agent Cooper and Donna. i remember my parent's friends having these parties every week where everyone would drink cocktails and swap theories about who killed Laura Palmer. and i remember feeling so cool that i knew and loved the show as much as they did. i *got* it. it made sense to me in all its complete nonsense and 'elliptical plot' ness.

takashi miike, almodovar, park chan wook, godard, truffaut, fellini, lynch, john waters, tood haynes, todd solondz, francois ozon. strange spanish films, strange french films, bizarro japanese and korean and chinese films. and of course, the strange and disturbing sensibilities of american film. these are what i love. worlds that make no sense, where nothing is as it seems, where every idea crushes what you thought was truth or reality. i have never truly loved movies with happy endings. never liked films where everything makes sense. they're entertaining. they're good for distraction but not for the kind of deep-down-in-your-soul transformation that comes from the likes of what david lynch created with Twin Peaks. that's what film, and tv for that matter, should be at their best.

it just may be time to watch the mystery of laura palmer unravel all over again.